Making sense of the Pensacola shooting and the loss of Kaleb Watson

One of the lessons during my training as a journalist was about helping people make sense out of complicated situations whether it was a tax hike, the AFC playoff scenarios, or how the electoral college works.

So once I got past the initial shock of the news out of Pensacola last week, I began trying to make sense of it all, especially the loss of USNA Class of 2019 Ensign Kaleb Watson, who had only arrived to train as a Navy pilot about a month before the massacre. According to a story by The New York Times, he was so excited to be ready to train for his longtime dream that he had not only already bought a home in the area, but had taken the time to mow the lawn.

From what I could gather, he probably could have escaped unharmed. I can’t lie, I suspect my first instinct would be to run away. But Kaleb didn’t. Kaleb had earned a spot at the United States Naval Academy. Kaleb had endured four challenging years that pushed him mentally, morally, physically, and academically. He had performed so well that he earned a coveted spot to be trained as a Navy pilot. And for that, and probably many other reasons, he responded in a way I am certain I could not.

The ensign’s commanding officer told his parents that the young man had jumped over a desk or counter when the gunman started shooting. “He hollered back for people to get out, to run, and he tackled him,” Sheila Watson, Ensign Watson’s mother, said in an interview, her voice wavering with emotion. “He was fighting with him, trying to unarm him, and he was shooting my baby.”

Ensign Watson was shot five times. He managed to crawl out of the classroom building, Ms. Watson said, and gave emergency personnel a description of the gunman and his location, “and then he collapsed.”

The New York Times

Can anyone make sense of that? I thought of all my fellow USNA parents and knew they were all thinking the same thing I was – that could have been my Mid. There’s no way we could truly understand how Kaleb’s parents felt, but because most of us adhere to the mantra, “your mid is my mid,” we all felt empathy infused with a mixture of shock, fear, and sadness.

As I was working through the emotions and trying to make sense of it, my mind kept wandering back to people asking how it felt for my son to have a “free education.” Sure Kaleb, like all Midshipmen, had a “free education.” He earned a bachelor’s degree and completed numerous summer trainings. But he also got a “free education” about how evil presents itself in this world. He got a “free education” about sacrifice and duty and honor. As these thoughts simmered in mind, my emotions shifted from anger to sadness. I realized Kaleb did, in fact, get a free education from the United States Naval Academy. It was an education about life and the oath he took when he entered. And Friday, 6 December 2019 was the final exam, where he was given the ultimate test of what it meant to be a member of the United States military. Kaleb not only aced that exam, but he also set the standard by which others will be measured for years to come.

Maybe over the course of time, I will be able to make sense of it. But not now. Despite my training and experience, this is too raw, too real, too close.

For now, all I can pray for is a sense of peace and comfort for his family, a deepened sense of commitment for his fellow sailors and the Midshipmen who follow, and, for Kaleb, fair winds and following seas. His brothers and sisters have the watch, a watch they stand vigilantly, but with heavy hearts.

22 thoughts on “Making sense of the Pensacola shooting and the loss of Kaleb Watson

  1. Thank you for expressing what my heart has been feeling since I heard the news. ❤️
    Prayers for our USNA family and all of our Mids~all day, every day. 🙏🏼💙⚓️


  2. You have captured the essence of what rolls around in my mind with your words….broken hearted, yes. But not surprised by his heroic actions. He absolutely saved lives. No greater calling 💙.


  3. Thank you for trying to explain this tragedy and the post. I am not trying to be a troll, but Kaleb’s education, your Child’s education, and every person’s child that attends a Military Academy or enlists in the United States Military’s education is not free! Those educations come at a very very high cost to each and every individual that receives those educations! Every person that signs on the dotted line writes the “proverbial blank check” for possible loss of limb, emotional trauma, or up to and including death!
    Kaleb did pass the final exam. His actions were heroic! I pray that every young person becomes the hero that Kaleb became in his final moments. But every military education comes with a commitment to serve our nation, the challenges associated with entering the breech, and sometimes…someone pays the ultimate price!
    May God bless all the men and women who have ever served, who are serving now, and who will serve our great nation in the future!
    Thank you for your families service to our nation.


    1. Thanks for the thoughtful note. Agree that the education is not “free” and that misperception is maddening. God bless Kaleb. He died a hero, faithful to his oath, courageous to the end.


    2. I feel the same for my daughters who graduated in ‘12 & ‘14 and all their friends who visited us over those six years!!! Thank you for all the words above. My ‘14 grad is in Italy, prayers all around for our military!


  4. Sendng heartfelt sympathies from one military mother to another. Your heroic son will not be forgotten for his actions, for his courage, for his commitment to his country.


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